"Temple, first I want to tell you I did sleep last night. I have thought about our time yesterday, really learned a lot about myself from you - you are right on the mark. You really do have a special gift.
I wished mostly that I had recorded our conversation so that I could listen over & over not to miss a thing. What I do know is the path my life has taken has been what my subconscious is comfortable with. I will change my thinking and be the conscious woman I deserve to be." (2014)

"The Conscious Woman is a place of refuge and strength to me. It's a safe place for growth and weakness the same, without judgement or consequences. I always leave feeling like I've made new friends with my peers and myself."  (2012)

I want you to know that I know about real pain. I'm not talking about rips and tares, I'm talking about the darkest seasons of pain. The time in life when you have no hope, no direction, and your barely holding on. I know that place. I have been there. I will share a bit of my experience in hopes that you will feel safe talking to me.

I waited my whole life to have a child. I have hormonal issues as a teen that kept me on birth control most of my life. The relationships I had been in never leveled out for me to feel safe to have a child. Then at 37 I met someone that I thought would be my life mate. A few years into the relationship I got off birth control and we got pregnant. It was the miracle I was waiting for, however, I had a miscarriage at 6 weeks and it was completely devastating. I had to take time to find out what happened and get my body corrected. I wanted to try again, but things started to fall apart with my marriage. My husband was showing very serious signs of mental illness. I always knew there was something wrong, there was enough good for me to hold on and support him to heal, but things quickly went downhill. He had a complete mental breakdown and refused to get help. I stayed enclosed with him for months while he raged and spiraled out of control until he ran off and stayed away for months. It wasn't until he almost lost his life that we were able to get him diagnosed and treatment for bi-polar disorder, but the treatment was to late and the battle was to long. So much damage over the years of trying to get help had cause a split in the marriage that we couldn't save. I thought I had lost my husband to mental illness and also any plans of having a family of my own. I battled the darkness that came into my house for months and months, and not only did God restore my life, my husbands life and brought us a great new home, God has restored my heart with forgiveness and a strength that I never even new I had.

I'm telling you this because I know what it feels like to be someone of great faith and feel like God has failed you. It is the worst feeling in the world. I know what it takes to get through that season. I have done it and so will you.